There have been times when I thought he would go back to his biological mom through this, and knowing he is here to stay is a relief. A part of me feels for his mom still though. She is a nice person and has so much potential to be a good parent. I also know that she was given great support and motivation to get clean and she continued to choose other things over her son. And, I know that she made these choices fully knowing that the result would he loosing her son permanently. Still, it's a bittersweet thing to be be happy about adding a child when it means someone else has lost them.
The other comment we get is that adopting is too expensive. The response to that is very easy. We have had no cost to adopt from foster care. None. In fact, each child who is considered special needs, meaning they are over two years old or part of a sibling group, qualifies for a monthly stipend until they turn 18. They also get medicaid until they are 18, so there isn't even any medical costs for these kids. So, cost is not a factor when adopting from foster care.
Our time as foster parents has been an education to both of us. We have seen into the lives of people who live very different from us. We have learned a lot from those people too. We have had two boys live with us for 3 months and 2 years, then return home to their families. We have had another two boys come into our home and become permanent members of our family. Our family has grown through the greatest way possible, love.
We are happy to be finished with caseworker visits (no offense caseworkers!), done with court, no more visitations, done with therapist and case manager visits, finished with the uncertainty of wondering if one of our kids would stay or go home. But, we are thankful we had those experiences too.
If anyone ever has any questions about adoption through foster care or about foster care itself, Nathan and I are always happy to answer them. We love talking about fostering and our experiences.
Happy New Year from the Coe's!